Apologies…

I just wanted to take this time to apologize for not being able to present the work I do that is actually accepted by my publisher… You see, I can’t post any of those tracks here (or anywhere) because of the whole publishing rights thing. That is not to say that I am not proud of what I have put up here on the blog, just that I hate you guys do not get to hear the stuff that is actually being approved for placement in film/TV productions.

I guess this means you will need to be on the lookout for “J. Milton Gintz” in the credits of some TV shows (i.e.; Ugly Betty, NCIS, CSI, Lie to Me just to name a few). So hey, be on the lookout next season folks!

Funny What Time Can Do….

… For any situation, time passing can have multiple affects on so many levels. As much as I try to keep my personal life out of this blog, sometimes it is just too much a part of every single aspect of every thing I do; including my music… Or rather sporadic interruption of my making music.

As time has passed over the last two months I have felt (I believe) the entire range of emotions that come at a time of loss or grieving. After two months those feelings have subsided and only a few remain to pester me (or inspire me depending on which side of the bed I wake up on).

At the beginning of this really *#@$ experience I was actually able to focus and produce a couple of tracks… But for the last several weeks my mind had been obsessed with “Hope”… That was not the place to have my head. I think now that I should have been thinking a little bit more about closure. When you know you have done everything humanly possible to allow someone to share your life… But that someone is still exactly where they were when you left them… That might be the time to close the door on that chapter of your life.

I hate the thought of not having the chance to make something right involving the things that are most important to me. I also realize I can only do so much by myself and that it takes two to put forth an effort when relationships are the goal. Superdaddy will always be there right where he needs to be…. But Superhusband can’t go where he is not wanted.

Now that this time has transpired between grief and acceptance; I think I can begin to work again and hopefully have some music to present. Sorry you couple of folks that stroll through here have to deal with any of this… But hey, this is my blog ain’t it?

Lewis Taylor really Inspires and Speaks to me…

**Slightest of change in wording to speak for me;

“Pinned on my heart, I swear I would do most anything baby now… If I could work it out. This pain in your heart, am I misunderstanding? You and I in far away places, what are we waiting for? Open the door, don’t let a hang up get us down. Don’t keep me waiting, hanging on. I might just change my mind and walk away.
It’s not a crime to have ever had a doubt about it. I could maybe ease your mind should you decide to stay. Think of the time when I’ve had to get along without it. If you’re not ready baby I won’t wait for you to say I love you.
Tell me why should it be so? That somebody has to wait for such a long time my darling? I’m giving everything you wanted, so tell me what you’re really waiting for? Don’t keep me waiting, hanging on I might just change my mind and close the door.
It’s not a crime to have ever had a doubt about it. I could maybe ease your mind should you decide to stay. Think of the time when I’ve had to get along without it. If you’re not ready baby I won’t wait for you to say I love you.”

That is the lyric to a Lewis Taylor track titled “Say I Love you“

I am going through a really hard spot in my relationship to a person I care for very deeply and this song spoke volumes to me. In order to help exorcise my own little demons concerning this I decided to post it here. I tend to try NOT to lay out my personal life here on this blog… But fucking hell! This shit is just getting a little to much to keep locked into my head (no matter how ridiculously large it might be! HA!).